So I remind
myself, I've Just turned 24. Do I feel excited? Of course. But, to some extent
I equally feel scared. That feeling of falling behind on my life goals. It's
the overwhelming feeling of riding the "Guilt" Train. Do you feel it
too, friends?
"When I
stand before God at the end of my life, I would hope that I would not have a
single bit of talent left and could say, I used everything you gave me" -
Erma Bombeck said it.
To be honest,
reading that quote sure made my night long, as I pondered on my present self
last night. I was being reminded to look back for experience just as much as I
strongly desire looking into the future for inspiration.
When I think of
a 24 year old, I think of someone who should have their life all together. Or
perhaps, should at least be on their path of certainty. I am certainly not
feeling like I got it all together but definitely I am on the right path.
Well, this is
not to make me feel the pile of my own regrets, no! To the friends I have lost,
I do understand that some friends come and go (it's ok for me to free you).
However, I am also very confident that I'll not be taking the "guilt"
train any longer because I've decided to get myself back.
Wow,😕 birthdays sure can make me realize
just how slowly I've lost my "Child-like" wonder attitude. Growing up
back then, I had this great attitude of curiosity. I was too curious, I asked
questions, looked at the world full of wonder. And answers came to me with some
much ease. Somewhere, somehow I lost it but I want it back. I definitely need
to get back to the library. If not, I'll build my own book library in my
self-confused-room.
All in all, it's
been an exciting time. Just would like to say thanks to you all for the warm
birthday wishes. I am grateful.
